Getting Knocked Up

No one and no thing could have prepared me for this. It’s not part of any of the pregnancy books or magazines I read. It’s the unspeakable; three miscarriages. I never imagined or even feared that this could be a possibility, that this could be my reality. The wind has been knocked out of me, [...]

I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve been waiting for something good to write about, for something positive to happen. My writing feels so depressing and dark right now. I want so badly to be optimistic; I want to think nothing bad could ever happen again.  I want to be happy and naïve. I [...]

Just when I think things are getting better, they seem to get worse. When I start to see a light, my world becomes engulfed in darkness. It has been 3 weeks since we were told that our baby’s heart stopped beating and these three weeks have been the worst of my entire life.  I feel [...]

I haven’t posted to Tuesdays Unwrapped in quite sometime, well, because I haven’t felt like there have been very many “gifts” in my life to unwrap lately.  It has been 14 days exactly since I lost my baby. I feel like I have become cynical, lost and hopeless.  Driving to work this morning was especially [...]

In an effort to help my heart stop hurting and as a memorial to my two babies in heaven I started a memory box and scrapbook. It is difficult to do, but I feel like it is something I must do. I have started the first few pages and when I showed my husband he [...]

I guess I knew I would have to do this, to face my life again. I don’t think I am ready to accept reality yet, but the world keeps moving. Work is still there, bills are still there, dishes are still there, life is still there. Yesterday was my first day back at work since [...]